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So my psychiatrist has made up her mind that it is Bipolar and nothing I do seems to convince her that it isn't. I have taken her my profiles of the MMPI and the MCMI, and she just dismisses them as invalid results. Which they are not. They are completely valid. I believe that I do not have Bipolar, nor am I depressed. I am just generally anxious, and wish she would treat me for that.

I have realised that constant arguing with her wasn't working, so now I am being nice. It has made her be more nice to me, but it has also just made her think that the niceness is me becoming manic. So as far as she is concerned, I am taking my meds daily as directed, but I'm not. I figure this is the only way to convince her that I don't need the meds she thinks I do, and that I do not have bipolar. It is difficult though, because some of the meds do take away the anxiety, but to me it is a small price to pay. When I went to go see her today, I had to hide my anxiety, which was difficult on it's own, but it worked. So she thinks it is the meds working, but it can't be since I am off them. But I couldn't tell her that, not just yet, so I played along. It's not like anything I say would change her mind anyway.

So that is my plan of action...